I’ve settled into a new job, my dream job, actually. I’d like to tell you the exact name of the company, but in the spirit (and law) of being careful and wise, let’s just say you’ve heard of it and you most likely like it.
I’ve told people over and over that I finally found my niche. Not that I didn’t love my previous worlds, my teaching, my higher education life, but I’m firing on all cylinders now. I thought my skill set of teaching, passion, love of tech, and personality would be these distant orbits, these planets far from each other. But somehow, in some astronomical term that sounds fancy like “zzygy”, the worlds collided. Again, I’m in my dream job where I’m really passionate.
And you don’t have to go far on the internet to find statements such as:
“Look for your dream job.”
“Find your passion.”
“Drop everything until you find what you’re super good at and people will pay you heaps of money to do.”
Let me be clear—I still work. Sometimes I have to sit on a stool and gather my wits about me. Sometimes I drive home and my head is just pounding.
But here’s how you know you’ve landed, where there’s some connection.
When I wake up in the morning, I look forward to going in. My daydreams of “what else is out there” are gone. Sure, this job could morph into a hundred different patterns and I know I’ll be challenged and pop the occasional Advil.
Plus, I know that I’m a unicorn in this situation; I know many successful people who grind the 9 to 5 and then do fantastic stuff outside their job. One is the fuel for the other; I get that; I respect and honor that. (As a 40 year old single man, I understand that my position of having one mouth to feed—definitely out of the ordinary and convenient for trying different things.)
I think I can finally shelve Afghanistan now because I recently read the words I wrote my first week in Afghanistan—the trembling fear, the isolation and uncertainty.
But now there is this sense of relief because I find myself whispering, “It was all worth it to get here. All worth it.”
And I hope there is a sense of worth in what you are pursuing right now.